One of the challenges I often run into with my blogging is that everyone takes every word I write literally. I utilize my blog as a place to work out my brain, emotions, thoughts, dreams, desires and decisions that I am considering. I also am one of those individuals that often thinks out loud, saying and sharing thoughts about what I'd like to do/accomplish. I share random thoughts about my career, personal life, goals and feelings with a lot of the individuals that I know. It really bothers me when someone takes what I say or write as the gospel. I know that it can be frustrating to others who really want to pin me down on a specific issue but I need this venue and my real time ramblings to establish my priorities.
I have spent the past few weeks really thinking about what inspires me -- in other words, when I wake up in the morning, what do I want? I find that most of the time my thoughts run towards traveling. I love to travel. I love waking up in different places. I love the smell and feeling of an unfamiliar place as I learn the lay of the land. I love not knowing what is around the next corner or what adventure may be in store with an unscheduled day. I love sleeping in after a late night of drinking and socializing with new friends. I love waking up early to catch a flight, bus, train or ferry to an exciting new destination. For me, travel, just being in motion, has always created the most stability for me. I am also painfully aware that the loneliness I have carried with me throughout my life is as much a part of who I am when I am traveling -- and the people I meet - often those that really seem to fill the void the most - are the ones I am the quickest to leave. I may look back. I may have regrets yet I find I am unable to throw on the brakes long enough to stay or be in one place. I need a soul mate that craves the open road and adventure.
Financially speaking I grew up, as far as I knew, somewhat wealthy. Money in my late teens and early 20's was easy to make. I had enough luck in my life that there always seemed to be financial windfalls whenever I needed them to occur to allow me to take the next step of my professional and personal journey that started as a kid. Now, I realize I must rebuild financially to do what I love most.
Nothing inspires or motivates me like a trip. Even the mention of a trip makes me work harder than anything else. I know one part of my life is certain. I am a traveler. I need to travel. I must travel. I will continue to explore this world and learn from each stranger who becomes a friend.
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